When we indulge in the highs and lows of ego we are in a state of imbalance. The ego defines our strength and weakness. It conceals the meaning of our existence at any state of consciousness.
It’s the reagent that overwhelms sensations with emotions as we move away from any conformity or pattern that defines our identity to ourselves. We exist in a mode where society conforms to the concepts of equality based on a singular projection of our potential, as the individual.
“Forget the self and you will fear nothing, in whatever level or awareness you find yourself to be.” ~ Carlos Castaneda, The Active Side of Infinity. As our beings evolved thoughts and mental capabilities we somewhere developed the tendencies to drench every aspect of our existence in contemplation, fueled by the polarities of mental conditioning. Our polarities provide a scale for the definition of our ego, as they are the points that define the variations in our gross wavelengths.
The singular personality emerged as an embodiment of cognitive and neurological nuances. Identity allocates sets of acceptable and unacceptable attributes to this personality. These in turn help us move along our gross plan of life where we need to function within systems – both at the external and internal levels.
In order to follow a pattern requires an ability to function within set parameters. Notions of acceptable behavior that are the loins of drama and comedy enable us with the foundation to create our shining personas. That is essentially a mosaic of our chosen parts, bequeathed by a richly conditioned inheritance of life.
Never has there been a more elusive and misguided notion as that of acceptance from the people of our world. The very act of it removes the individuality from an individual and causes them to mirror the beliefs and logic patterns of the general majority or minority, giving life to the very distinction of the two. This molds an ego and creates a state of flux from inner peace that is firmly dependent on the views of externalities.
“Whenever you are self-conscious you are simply showing that you are not conscious of the self at all. You don’t know who you are. If you had known, then there would have been no problem— then you are not seeking opinions. Then you are not worried what others say about you— it is irrelevant!” ~ Osho
The personality within ourselves in its most unadulterated form, is a pure state of consciousness. In our gross realities, subtle blockages appear as puppet strings to our personalities, confining us within the preferences of our created personas.
So we find our fluctuating degrees of holding back or indulging in certain situations. Over time this weaves the tapestry of our lives; infrastructure (foundations) for the generations of conditioning that follow. This appears hidden in the multitudes of varying degrees of happiness.
Sensations are the strings of the puppet personality. They overwhelm us with feelings. If we just observe the movement of the vibrations that form sensations, we remove these boundaries of our personalities.
It’s no coincidence that there exists an age-old saying; ‘Love is Blind’, it is indeed blind to the preferences of the personality. Love functions on how the person feels rather then any other superficial qualities.
It’s a myth that perception defines our feelings. When in fact it’s the feelings that penetrate through our perceptions.
“Nobody sees anybody truly but all through the flaws of their own egos. That is the way we all see …each other in life. Vanity, fear, desire, competition– all such distortions within our own egos– condition our vision of those in relation to us. Add to those distortions to our own egos the corresponding distortions in the egos of others, and you see how cloudy the glass must become through which we look at each other.
That’s how it is in all living relationships except when there is that rare case of two people who love intensely enough to burn through all those layers of opacity and see each other’s naked hearts.” ~ Tennessee Williams
Let’s not get embodied in external perceptions of our personalities and empower ourselves to be within our true potential of which this personality is only a facet. When we travel to the silence between the stories we tell ourselves about who we ‘think’ we are. We find what we really are is beyond our thoughts.