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The Intellectual Necessity for Living a Spiritual Life

“‘Inability to accept the mystic experience is more than an intellectual handicap.” ~ Alan Watts
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The intellect, the rational reasoning part of ego, wants to know everything. At least, it is true of this writer. It is human nature to want to understand life, the nature of the universe and our place in it, our experiences, and our purpose. What does it all mean?

We could say that the quest began with simple logic; philosophy and science born of the Renaissance have given us a rational means by which we can make such queries. There is, however, a fundamental problem that will eternally impede our efforts. As much as we humans celebrate how precisely we can model the universe with the rational scientific methods we have devised, we are only able to do so with an infinitesimal fraction of ultimate reality.

It appears that something beyond intellect is required to access the majority of what we are calling ultimate reality, something beyond the material, corporeal world. Looking beyond the corporeal thus implies an exposure to the spiritual world. For this sake of the article, let us say then that the composite of reality includes both material (rationally accessible) and spiritual (not rationally accessible) domains. If so, how do we access the spiritual domain?

First, let’s examine what we think we know about reality. We learn in elementary school science something about atomic structure and that the atom is mostly empty space. A hydrogen atom is more than 99.999% empty space. Yet, there is something even more unsettling than all matter being mostly empty space.

The observable universe consists of mass and energy whereby only 4.9% of the matter is ordinary matter. The remaining non-directly observable constituency of the universe has been relegated by mathematical models to what is called dark energy and dark matter; the make-up is roughly 68.3% dark energy and 26.8% is dark matter. Thus, we know that we have only observed 4.9% of the universe which is for the most part empty space.cube

Another thing that mathematical models speculate is that reality is far more dimensional than the 3-dimensional world known to our senses, or 4-dimensional world including the intellectual perception of time. Discussion of higher dimensions is beyond the scope here, but we can examine the notion briefly enough to understand the implications.

Recall Plato’s allegory of the cave in his Republic. Assume cave dwellers have been imprisoned since childhood, chained so that they could not see one another but only a wall that sits before them.

(This is a thought experiment, so life’s necessary activities like eating, going to the bathroom, hygiene and such should be suspended.) Behind them is light source. Between the light source and the prisoners, people are walking carrying objects and performing various actions.

To the prisoners their entire reality is based on shadows that fall on the wall before them. Whatever their other senses – sounds and smells – tell them will be attributed to these shadows that make up the world as they know it. Plato’s cave goes on to describe the experience of a freed prisoner and his interaction with those still imprisoned and how unbelievable the enlightened tales of the real world sound to the uninitiated.

I’ll leave it to the reader to explore this classic allegory. My intent is to introduce the concept of a lower level projection (a two-dimensional shadow) from a higher level domain (a three-dimensional world).

A more developed sense of higher dimensions and projections was treated in several 19th century works, most notably those by Charles Howard Hinton who coined the term tesseract, as the fourth dimensional analog of the cube in his work “A New Era of Thought.” Hinton’s writings influenced P.D. Ouspensky and Claude Bragdon, who in his book “A Primer of Higher Space” illustrated Hinton’s ideas.

Like Plato’s cave, a projection of a cube (its cross-section) would appear on the wall as a 2-dimensional square or, depending on its alignment with the light source, any one of a number of polygons. A perfectly normal cross-section of a cube is a square. A cross-section of a square is a 1-dimensional line.

Its cross-section is a point source. Now we must ask what kind of object exists in 4-dimensional space such that its projection in 3 dimensions is a cube? The answer is the tesseract and it is not something one can grasp easily with the intellect.
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And what of higher dimensions? Contemporary cosmological models, one such being string theory, describe a universe of perhaps 10 or 11 spatial dimensions. To the rational mind the universe begins to look mighty irrational. Using only the senses, including instrumentation to improve sensitivity and accuracy, we can only intellectualize a fraction of the spatial dimensions of the universe.

Within the 3-dimensional fraction of reality, we only sense 4.9% of the matter which is greater than 99.999% empty space. So, exactly what are we attempting to model with theoretical and repeatable experimental methods based on laws that govern only a fraction of the whole?

When one recalls Shakepeare’s quote in Hamlet, “There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy,” this should crystallize in one’s mind: to better understand our place in the universe and to become fully self-actualized, we must nurture our spiritual connections to that which lies beyond the veil of logic and science.

There are many tools and techniques to explore. Exercise in this manner, practice as it may be called is really religion with a lower case “r.” Set aside monotheism, polytheism, atheism or every “-ism” for that matter. Set aside all dogma and religion with an upper case “R.” The intellect mandates that we lead a spiritual life to reach our highest potential. What separates intellectus from spiritus is the ego; and there lies the rub!

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No Tree Knows Mystery – Drawing Parallels Between the Life of a Human and a Tree

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Nature is a marvelous teacher. If you look closely at any part of nature, you will realise there is something to learn from everything, even a tree. The life of a tree has many parallels to the life of a human.

While most of these similarities are physical, there are existential lessons to be learned from the physical as it is how we process and experience life. Let’s take a look at what these words convey.

From the very beginning of a tree’s life, we can see parallels to our own lives. While the processes are different, a seed is planted in the earth much like sperm and ovum are planted in the uterus.

psy-treeThe seed begins to grow in two directions remarkably similar to the zygote which divides and grows through mitosis. The earth is the womb to the seed as the mother is the womb to zygote.

Thus, the beginning of the lesson provided by the tree is that many things in life grow in two directions. We as humans are often taught that light is good and darkness is evil. The tree shows us that this is not the case as by growing down into the earth it nourishes, anchors and stabilizes itself.

Simultaneously, the tree grows up into the atmosphere. Here, we see how the tree seeks sunlight to harness, convert and store its energy. The message is of maintaining a balance of up and down, dark and light, and that our primary sources of physical existence are the sun and earth.

During birth and youth, the tree is vulnerable much like the humans. It requires proper environment to grow and flourish like nutrient rich soil, water and sunlight. The tree is shaped by its environment as the wind, soil, rain, rocks, animals and human constructs promote or interfere with its growth.
Young humans too are profoundly influenced by their environment, both physically and emotionally. Humans require atmosphere, water, food, clothing and shelter as well as care givers to love and teach them.

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Again a parallel, the earth and sun are to the tree what the mother and father are to the child. As the tree transitions from sprout to sapling, it must be strong yet flexible as the elements in nature are at times harsh.

The perils of the adolescent tree are many and include fire, drought, flood, extreme temperature, wind, moss, other plants, insects, animals and humans.

These same elements are concerns to young humans as well. Apart from physical, humans have emotional and psychological needs that are ideally provided in a beneficial manner yet many times they are detrimental; much akin to treachery within nature. This parallel is that the beneficial supports and nourishes while the difficult strengthens and prepares us for future challenges.

Throughout its existence the tree grows, blooms, reproduces, sheds, sometimes goes dormant and eventually dies just as all physical entities must. Humans also have seasons in life, and while we do not shed leaves we do have friends and family that perish (parts of our family tree).

The physical losses of the tree are much like the physical losses of humans, yet we have an emotional/psychological component. A lesson from the tree shows that while it may lose all of its leaves and even some branches in the fall – there will soon be new leaves to grow and new branches that will help nourish its growth.

Each time we lose a loved one we are given an opportunity to give that love to someone else, someone that needs it and someone that may very well respond in kind.
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In life trees behave in response to the seasons. They have means to procreate. They house many other organisms from the microscopic, to insects, reptiles, to birds, primates and in death they even house humans.

They usually live for many years and provide stability and nourishment to topsoil. They provide shade, weather protection, oxygen, sometimes food in life and then in death they provide timber for building, heating and cooking.

As we live our lives, we humans have comparable experiences and provide many of the same services to each other as well as to other species whether intentionally or inadvertently.

Another phenomenon that the tree demonstrates well is how life continues uninterrupted even after what appears to be an end. Consider the tree that provides firewood to cook a meal that a human eats.

In this instance, the life of the tree (its stored energy) is released to feed the fire which in turn cooks the food to feed a human who in turn has a child that plants a tree. Thus the tree shows us how there is no beginning, and no end to life. Life is a cycle that does not judge or condemn or expect anything. It just is.

There are many lessons here as the tree does not begrudge or charge the insects and animals that take residence, sustenance or proximity to it. The tree gives much while taking only what it requires from the earth and the sun.

It grows up into the light, and it grows down into darkness. All it has to give, it offers unconditionally without expectations and regrets.

In the bleak of winter, it stands patiently awaiting spring without self-pity, complaint or worry. The tree in its simplicity understands that it is a beautiful part of something much grander than itself and if you care to observe its example you can learn from what it leaves.

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7 Reasons Why You Fail to be Extraordinary

 

Life isn’t easy. We all know that. It has a way of kicking us in the teeth when we’re smiling. But sometimes we’re too easy on ourselves. Sometimes we need to hear the hard and ugly truth of why our lives are stagnant and unproductive.

Sometimes we need to be brutally honest with ourselves as to why we aren’t doing anything amazing with our lives. I’m not talking about things that we can’t control, like what socioeconomic class we were born into, or what 1st 2nd or 3rd world country we were born in.

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I’m talking about the things that we can control, like our overall attitude toward life, and our sense of motivation.

Here, then, are seven reasons why you may be failing to be extraordinary.

1) Because you’re afraid of failing

“We could never learn to be brave and patient, if there were only joy in the world.” ~ Helen Keller

Ironic, isn’t it? That number one on this list of failing to be extraordinary is that you’re afraid of failure. It’s true though. Why is this? Because when you’re afraid of failing you never truly begin.

When you’re worried about how well you’re going to do something that you’ve never done before, you tend to not try at all because it is so daunting a task to begin with. But there is a way to flip the tables on this psychological dynamic: make the goal to fail as fast as possible and then learn from your mistakes.

Keep doing it over and over again. With enough practice you will be able to fall flat on your face and jump back to your feet without even blinking. And the next time you try, you will be that much stronger and wiser.

You may fail again, but so what. Keep repeating the cycle, over and over. Bite off more than you can chew, and then learn why and how it was more than you could chew. Then go back and bite off some more. With enough courage and determination, you might just have the capacity to become extraordinary.
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2) Because you’re too busy being obedient

“But I don’t want comfort. I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness. I want sin.” ~ Aldous Huxley

Because you don’t question authority nearly enough, which should be always. Because you are too busy sitting on your ass taking orders like a good little armchair quarterback to do anything worthwhile with your life.

Get out of that La-Z-Boy chair and question what you’re being told: by the TV, by news, by your parents, by teachers, by your chain of command, even by me and this article.

And especially question yourself. Question your internal authority figure to its absolute roots, and then question those roots until all that’s left is a pile of unanswerable questions. Then you’ll finally be getting somewhere.

What if it’s all a lie? How many extraordinary people do you think became extraordinary by following the crowd, or by obeying obsolete orders, or by fawning to parochial commands? That’s right, zero! Rise up! Become a freedom unto yourself. Then, you might just have the capacity to do something extraordinary with your life.

3) Because you lack imagination

“Art is not a mirror held up to reality, but a hammer with which to shape it.” ~ Bertolt Brecht

This is a big one. Most of us are so entranced by the “way things are” and so dumbed-down by corporate media and intrusive advertising that our imaginations have been dulled-down to almost nil. Nobody does anything amazing with their lives without being imaginative and creative.

Nobody! Doing something extraordinary requires extraordinary thinking. It requires, not only thinking outside the box, but demolishing the box and then creating something new out of the destruction.

It requires shattering mental paradigms and then sticking the shattered pieces back together in a way that makes people’s jaws drop to the floor. It requires pushing envelopes until your fingers are bleeding from so many paper cuts that you’re able to use the blood to write “Art should disturb the comfortable and comfort the disturbed” (Banksy) on the plate glass window.

Wake up! Use the key of your imagination to unlock the Creative Gatekeeper’s door, and then you might discover the capacity to do something amazing with your life.

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4) Because you worry too much about what others think

“I never made one of my discoveries through the process of rational thinking.” ~ Albert Einstein

Do you think Einstein gave two blue shits what the scientific status quo thought about him? What about Jesus? Do you think he was worried about what the Jewish orthodoxy thought about his unorthodox, rebel-rousing philosophy?

Or Martin Luther King Jr., do you think he cared what people thought about his going to jail 40 different times for social justice? What about Gandhi? What about Thoreau? What about Edward Snowden and Malala Yousafzai?

They didn’t worry too much about what people thought about them, they just worried enough to get the job done. And so should you. Pull your head out of the status quo noose. Part the raging sea of their negativity like Moses parting the Red Sea. If you can do that, then you might gain the capacity to accomplish something extraordinary.

5) Because you’re letting cognitive dissonance get the best of you

“Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future.” ~ Deepak Chopra

Your worldview is a terribly precious thing. You’re like Shmegol from Lord of the Rings, clinging to it like a deranged immature child. Cognitive dissonance is a peculiar psychological predicament that is also a double-edged sword.

On the one side it keeps you safe and secure in your perception of reality. On the other hand it prevents you from accepting a new worldview that may be healthier than the one you’ve been clinging to.

But, in order to become someone who has the ability to achieve greatness you have to be able to maintain a precarious balancing act between the two sides, pushing yourself to empathize with other people’s worldview, while also trying to stretch your own worldview like one would stretch a comfort zone, all without going crazy along the way.

It’s tricky, and there are cognitive biases galore. But if you can master your cognitive dissonance, or at least become aware of how it affects your perception, you might yet gain the capacity to do something amazing.

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6) Because you don’t read enough

“You want weapons? Go to a library. Books are the best weapons in the world.” ~ Doctor Who

This is another big one. The only way you can penetrate the minds of those extraordinary souls who came before you is to read. Reading a book by an amazing author is like standing on the shoulders of giants and seeing even further than they did.

If you have only ever read one book, and you refuse to read anything else that might stretch your mind, then you doom yourself to ignorance and one-right-way thinking that will prevent you from ever being able to do something amazing with your life.

Don’t let this happen to you. Go to the bookstore, buy a cup of coffee, grab two or three books off the shelf, curl up into a comfy chair, and lose yourself in the mind of another person. See the world from their unique perspective.

It will help you become more emphatic and compassionate, while also helping you with cognitive dissonance. Don’t let yourself become a victim of the now common cliche: you can lead a horse too water, but you can’t make him drink.

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7) Because you worry too much about money

“In a country well governed, poverty is something to be ashamed of. In a country badly governed, wealth is something to be ashamed of.” ~ Confucius

This is probably the biggest blocker to your greatness that there is. You want to know why your life is stagnant and not going anywhere? Because you have devoted yourself to a daily grind that does nothing more than pay for crap that you don’t need, while keeping you helplessly dependent upon an unsustainable system.

You’re a wage-slave, nothing more. You’re a corporate cog, grinding your life away so that some boss, CEO, or master can sit on his fat-ass and eat caviar out of a million-dollar dish while you’re using food stamps to buy almost-expired bread made by Monsanto.

Worrying about money is your jail cell. Worrying about paying next month’s rent is the psycho-social snare dragging you from month to month, year to year, decade to decade, until you’re lying on your death bed wondering what happened to your life, asking yourself, “Why didn’t I travel more? Why didn’t I read more? Why didn’t I paint more? Why didn’t I write more poetry? Why didn’t I take more risks? Why did I listen to everybody else about how I should live my life? Why wasn’t I able to do something amazing with my life?” And the only answer you can come up with is: because I was too worried about making money.

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Why Believing in Free Will is Good for You

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“We gallop through our lives like circus performers balancing on two speeding side-by-side horses–one foot is on the horse called “fate,” the other o the horse called “free will.” And the question you have to ask every day is–which horse is which? Which horses do I need to stop worrying because it’s not under my control, and which do I need to steer with concentrated effort?” ~ Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

What is your understanding of free will? Do you agree that you are solely responsible for your actions? Or do you believe in fate? You possess an unshakable faith in fate and you leave it all on destiny.

Another possibility is that you may have found a middle ground; at times you feel liberated by free will and other times you rely on your fortunate stars.

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“To say that I would have done otherwise had I wanted to is simply to say that I would have lived in a different universe had I been in a different universe.” ~ Sam Harris, Free Will.

We have witnessed ancient thinkers and philosophers trying to prove that we do have control over our decisions, that our actions depend on us, and that they are not pre-written by fate or by subjective gods.

A lot of time has passed since then and if we compare the number of people in the world who believe in fate and destiny, it exceeds the number of people who believe in free will. And by free will, I don’t mean your free will to buy sour cream potato chips or bunk work.

You have free will to have a dream and turn into an action. You have the free will to think. If you are locked in a room, you have the free will to hope that someone will unlock the door.

You are caged, but your free will keeps the sense of freedom intact in you. That’s how powerful, one’s free will is. Each one of us possess that freedom. It’s a personal choice to be honest.
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To have integrity and be kind is a domain controlled by you. God doesn’t ask you to be vindictive, envious or malicious. Wars are not predestined. They happen because mankind chose war over peace. Criminals choose to commit a crime.

If everything is destined, they shouldn’t be punished. There is nothing that cannot be solved by having mindful communication. But humans use their free will to fight and create conflicts and division in the name of God, and blame it on fate as the reason for their inaction.

“If there was no free will in men, then there are no sins. When sins happened, it was ‘free will’ that made them doable. This is true, unless God has predestined human to do and to have sins.” ~ Toba Beta

One of the major argument against free will is that “free will is an illusion.” Several neuroscientists have claimed that one’s free will might be influenced by past experiences and stored memory in the subconscious.

It is true that human beings are conditioned by culture, family, past and several other external catalysts, but at the same time one is totally capable of thinking beyond these lines, and recondition our beliefs and thoughts.

So, how do we understand free will and use it to become a better individual? Redemption and peace is the true quest of the soul. We are here to explore and evolve, and not follow a set of rules created in favour of the ego. It is in your control to not get swayed by your surroundings.

Going further on this line of thought, and placing metaphysics in context, your free will is ultimately the energy you emit in terms of thoughts and actions. Hence, you are solely responsible for everything that happens to you.

As you sow, so shall you reap. Use your free will to think and act. Use your free will to be morally competent. Use your free will to emerge as a free soul.

“It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in us.” ~ William Shakespeare

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How I Found Freedom from Myself with Ayahuasca

I find it befitting after my second Ayahuasca healing ceremony to finally reveal to you about my experience with the Plant Spirit. Although the sacred Ayahuasca ceremony has been held in India for a while both of us got a chance to do it recently.

The first sessions were held in an organic farm on the outskirts of Mumbai; the ceremony is supposed to be conducted in natural surroundings where trees and plants are dominant as compared to the urban jungle. Prior to the ceremony we went for a purifying floral bath, this makes you feel refreshed.

Ayahuasca ShamanA bucketful of water filled with petals and few drops of Peruvian Agua de Florida – a cologne used in South America by shamans for cleansing, healing, ritual feeding and flowering. Components of the scent include citrus and herbal notes along with spice and floral undertones.

I was anxious before the first ceremony, I had no clue of what lies ahead. I was smoking tobacco trying to calm myself down, the strange thing is I don’t smoke it usually. Since this was my first ceremony I was asked to speak to Herbert, to present my intent and consult with him.

The First Ceremony – Manifestation of Intent

To set the tone for this transformational journey, we participated in a deep shamanic drumming session – this helped bring a sense of calmness amongst most of us. The ceremony was going to take place in a hut with a thatched roof, open on all sides and surrounded by fields.

Mattresses were lined up on either side of the Shaman’s altar, and each one was given a bucket or the ‘vomit’ bucket, a bottle of water, tissue paper for wiping our mouths after puking, a blanket in case you feel the shivers, and a pillow; this can be expected during most ceremonies.

We all took our respective places and were ready for the ceremony to begin. There were approximately 20 of us, and Herbert sat at the start of the ceremonial space. He opens a packet of Mapacho tobacco and blows the smoke inside the brew bottle and over his body. He seals the sacred space of the ceremony to prevent any dark spirits from entering.

This circle of healing or ‘Arkana,’ protects all the participants from encountering dark forces. (The Mapacho is Nicotina rustica, considered the most sacred of all the tobaccos within American Indian tribes, used for ceremonial purposes, to protect and purify. It is most commonly mixed with other tobaccos such as N. glauca or N. sylvestris to lessen the potency of it as it is by far the most powerful Nicotine.)

He walks around, blowing the sacred smoke on each one of us, and soon after this, Herbert begins pouring a cup of the brew. The Shaman says that the spirits tell them how much each of us needs to drink. The more healing a person needs, the more they get. The dosage is also dependent on your experience with the medicine.

Since it was my first ceremony I was given half a cup, this too happens in co-ordination. The first person closest to the Shaman gets the first cup, then subsequently each one walks to him and gets their dose. Once everybody is done the candle is put out and darkness fills the hut.

Within a quarter of an hour people begin to feel the effects – purging (puking), some begin to laugh, some get ecstatic, for some it is frequent trips to the toilet, while for me I was in a complete state of consciousness, wondering why is nothing happening to me.

After a long time, I passed out, and when I woke up I realized the medicine effect had well taken over me. When I looked outside the hut at the trees and the stars, everything seemed like it should be, nothing seemed out of the extraordinary, but when I shifted focus inside it was a different story altogether.

The Shaman looked surreal, there were no lights, eyes begin to play tricks in the darkness; the person next to me had transformed into an object straight out of my intent. For a long time, it was in my mind, pulsating moving, why do I think like this and when I wanted to get it out of me the visual started morphing into molecules and breaking down until it was diminished out of my head.

Post that I lied down for a while, an unexplainable cold shiver took over my body, the blanket provided seemed to do nothing. Herbert was chanting his Icaros and passed by each one of us. As he approached me I could feel the tremendous amount of energy he was emitting, nothing like I had ever experienced before in my life. I felt no urge to vomit, what most people were doing, some people were visiting the toilet but for me my purging was in the form of uncontrollable yawning.

gabor-mate-ayahuascaMost of the time in my first session I was lying down, the Shaman’s Icaros were extremely beautiful, I was getting carried away with the flute, occasionally I would tune into how other people were dealing.

Later I realized that I shouldn’t have compared this experience to others trying to draw parallels and similarities. The effects of the medicine wore out in a couple of hours, although one could go and have another cup. I was a little hesitant and when I approached, the Shaman had already closed the ceremony.

The ceremony lasted for around five to six hours, one of the important aspects that I overlooked is the diet. Ten days prior to doing the ceremony one is suppose to go on a strict diet, no meat, no sugar or salt, no processed food, only simple food and a lot of water to detox and prepare your body for the medicine. Although I wasn’t really sticking to the whole detox, three days prior to the ceremony I virtually starved myself and got my system as clean as I could get.

Overall the first experience left me with a feeling of something being incomplete, though I felt my intent was addressed there were something that the Shaman told me about myself that got me thinking. The recommended way to work with the medicine is to do minimum three ceremonies.

The Second ceremony: Calmness Prevailed

Lucky for me, in a couple of months opportunity knocked on my door again and I found myself with a cup that was three quarters full in my hand. I looked up and drank it under the star lit sky, this one was different.

In a few minutes I began to feel the effects. Unlike the first ceremony where I had an intent I wanted to work on, this time I decided to let the medicine do what it has to do, as they say a Mother knows best.
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The world started to look different in around 30 minutes, there was something happening. My past experience with hallucinogens taught me to look up to the stars to know how potent the substance is, so I was watching a gentle motion beginning to build up in the sky.

I had decided to let the Spirit medicine work with me, I could feel it coursing through my body. I felt my impurities collecting inside my body, like we made a deal that all the toxicity present in my body would collect in the gut and that’s exactly what was happening.

I could feel the build up in my stomach. I knew the dose was stronger than the first time, so I was expecting a certain amount of visual or mental chaos but Mother Spirit had a different plan.

After my massive experimentation with acid in my twenties my mind was never the same – I was dealing with a mind that was constantly thinking and even while holding conversations my mind would drift away and it was a constant battle that I had gotten used to.

Instead of my mind going berserk on Ayahuasca, I found peace after years; it was like someone pressed the pause button in my head, there were no thoughts, no chaos, there was nothing just me and the star lit sky which stretched up to Infinity.

tempoThe entire night was blissful, not a single thought went by me, nothing unwanted slipped in and the peace was not affected by any of the chaos outside. I felt like I had gone back in time to what I used to be ages before my mind was altered.

The entire night went by observing, no thoughts, no judgments just watching as other peoples’ processes unfolded. When the ceremony was closed people were sharing how their experience was, I was still in a state of calm, I din’t want to speak because I was so blissed out by the fact that I was experiencing the experience I never imagined I would experience.

Although this is not something I wanted to mention, if you recollect in the start of my experience I mentioned about all the impurities collecting in my gut. I visited the commode and had the dirtiest smelliest visit which looked like dark green poison getting out of my system.

Its been over a month since I had my second experience and I still feel the same, a veil of calm has been drawn over me. I am in complete awe of the Plant Spirit medicine and how it has worked on me. Here are few lines I wrote about my Ayahuasca experience…

“Amongst the chaos I emerged calm and brave.
All my fears were left in their grave.
The churning of gears the voice in my head,
All was stopped but I wasn’t dead.
With each breath of air, life was renewed.
Transformed by the spirit vine,
Unburdened and purified.
Mother works her magic
and she knows best.
Let her flow, rekindling the fire in your soul
All the healing you need, she knows.”

Thank you all involved in my transformation, much love and appreciation to each one of you! Love you Pachamama!

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